Today, I turn 28.
Happy birthday, me!
I can’t believe that I’ve been blogging in the same spot for so long that I can look back on my 23 birthday and see where I was in life. It’s amazing the change 5 years makes.
The funny thing is that I never would have predicted anything that happened in those five years. Whenever someone wants me to project where I’ll be in the next five years I refuse to answer because how do I know? Life is so unexpected.
All I know is that it’s been an incredible few years of personal growth. This last year especially has been so hard and so good that I can’t even believe it.
Birthdays aren’t always fun. Last year I cried on my birthday. When I was 19 I went to my beloved grandmother’s funeral. I cried then too.
This year I can’t do anything but smile because I’m so blessed by the people around me. I didn’t expect anything from today other than it to pass by unnoticed. Yet people in my life have stepped up and surprised me and cared for me and made me realize how lucky I am.
Thanks for reading and caring and being part of my life for however long you’ve been here. Love you!
Yesterday on the drive home from a workout at the gym I randomly thought, “I need to focus on losing weight.”
Then I thought, “Wait, what? How much do I even weigh?”
I spent about five minutes trying to remember where on the spectrum I was because I honestly had no idea at that moment. I couldn’t remember the last time I had gotten on the scale. I suppose it was for my weigh in last month when I posted on this blog. Since then? Haven’t really thought about it or jumped on the scale every morning like I once did.
Yet…. I’ve still gone to the gym and done cardio daily.
Yet… I’ve still made myself pretty healthy meals.
Yet… I’ve still made time for relaxation and gratitude.
Yet… I’ve still drunk a ton of water every day.
Yet… I’ve kept doing all the healthy behaviors and routines…. just because.
I’ve just done all these things because they make me feel good and because they are good for me. I’ve taken vitamins and taken yoga classes and spent time in the sunshine because I know these are things that will benefit my overall health and make me feel happy. Just because. Not for any end goal.
Oh shit, I am I normal? It feels really nice to not have that obsession over a number or clothes size in the back of my mind these days. It frees up a lot of room for other things like working hard at my day job and side gigs, being there for people I care about, and just enjoying life.