I woke up today thinking it would be a terrible day. It is a Monday after all and normally Mondays make me want to rethink my existence. But today turned out to be not that terrible. I enjoyed work (new job) and felt like I didn’t make too many mistakes (just saved them to make more mistakes tomorrow haha).
Everything has gone relatively well today despite my waking up on the wrong side of the bed. Everything that is except my eating.
For some reason when I ate lunch I just kept eating after I was full. I ate. And ate. And ate. I ate until I was uncomfortable…. and then I ate a little more.
To be brutally honest, it was DISGUSTING.
Even while I kept eating I was thinking it was disgusting. But that didn’t make me stop eating. I just pushed that little thought to the back of my mind and kept eating.
It was terrible.
But I’ve moved on from it. It’s almost dinner time (not that I really need it) so I will just try to be normal and not overeat like cuh-raaaaazy.
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and the key? that youve moved on from it. as you should.
DONE BEHIND YOU OVER, Girlfriend.
onward.
(and if you need help with the onward you know where to find me)
MizFit’s last blog post..Home is where the health is.
True that.
Onward. I’m there. Its a step by step by stumble by step process. But onward I go.
And thanks. :)
Before I get to my real comment, just wanted to let you know you’ve been given the Marie Antoinette Award on my blog :)
When you said you knew that it was disgusting, but you pushed the thought to the back of your head while you kept eating. Do you think it was that, or do you think you kept eating to try and escape that thought? In the former the problem is the eating, in the latter the problem is the thought.
You’d know better than me, but I had that process. I ate something or an amount that I thought I shouldn’t eat, felt disgusting, and kept eating to escape that feeling. I wasn’t eating because I wanted to eat necessarily, I was eating because I wanted to escape.
If you’ve really moved on from it, then that’s cool, and you’re a lot stronger person than me :) I had to find other ways for me to cope and combat those thoughts. But if you’re like me, you might want to look into CBT (Cognitive Behavioural Therapy).
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FLG: Great comment my friend. I definitely think at some point in there I was eating to try to escape the fact that I thought it was disgusting. Eh. And my moving on seemed more or less a temporary move since I know this will probably happen again sometime in the future. Not soon, but I feel like it might. I definitely should look into ways to combat the thoughts that encourage my eating because I know a lot of what I do is emotional eating.
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