Last week I went to a get together where I was the biggest person in the group. I didn’t think about it while I was there because I don’t think of myself as BIG. After I left and thought about it I realized I had been the biggest there by a long shot.
The funny thing about my body is that I am not uncomfortable with it. I’ve grown to love my body for what it is and what it isn’t. Because I am relatively comfortable with my body it is hard for me to think I am much bigger than the people around me. The old insecurities in my mind always lead me to think I am the biggest but the more rational part of my brain says I am not even close.
But last week I was. I didn’t think about it but I was once again the biggest girl in the room. That hasn’t happened in a few years now and I’m a bit ashamed that it did. I don’t want to be the biggest girl in the room no matter how comfortable I am with my body. Its not something that makes you feel proud like being the girl with the longest hair or the tallest.
This might be one of my vain reasons for losing weight, but it is a reason. Heres to losing weight and no longer being the biggest girl in the room!
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Go Mary! Great attitude. You’re on your way!
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I’ll drink to that :)
And there’s nothing wrong with vain reasons, I don’t think. There’s no doubt that I’m trying to look better :)
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I know that feeling… and for me, it sort of changed… I went from being the smallest to the biggest in just a few short days as the main group of people I hung out with shifted…
It was – for me – completely annoying to realize that I’d lost 50 pounds and here I was, now the biggest person in the room (not just women, but bigger than the men, too…)
I play that game entirely too much, tho… doing the sweep of the room when I enter it and deciding on my relative position in the fat-pecking-order… I should stop, but I can’t seem to be able to help it.
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Sometimes when I am the biggest girl in the room, I just pretend the other girls are skinny bitches! LOL!
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@Irene
LOL! Good idea!
Mary– Aesthetics will always be a big part of why EVERYONE does good for themselves… So good for you, another reason to just keep truckin’
Happy Friday!
~rupal
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loving your body for what it is and what it isnt.
I ADORE THAT.
to me 100% of success is being comfy in your own skin—-NO MATTER what the scale says or society.
xo xo,
Miz.
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