((Oh yeah, check out my post Emotional Eating: Asking the Scary Questions at A Weight Lifted. I think it’s a pretty good post and explains a lot of my process for how I got past the last bit of emotional struggle without turning to food.))
I’m resting today. Just resting. I feel like this is just another rest day in the middle of a rest week, to be honest. My body hasn’t totally complied with my desire to PUSH like I would like it too. So, I’m giving it what it wants and resting.
See, on Monday and Tuesday I was pushing hard. Even though mentally I was struggling physically I found myself pushing hard and kicking through barriers. I upped my weights use for upper body resistance training. I moved to the advanced positions in lower body conditioning. I did every bump up move in low impact aerobics and punched/kicked super hard in kickboxing. In short, I kicked ass.
And then my body took control and let me know what it needed. Yesterday my phone died in the middle of the night and my alarm never went off. This led me to sleep until almost 10 oclock, missing breakfast and the morning exercise classes. I wouldn’t have let myself do that on my own, but clearly it needed to happen. Then in upper body class I noticed my body/neck tensing up a lot with the strain of the heavier weights. I got through it but ended up with a slight pain inbetween my neck and shoulder. So after that I stuck with taking it easy. My cardio for the day was stairs, which I climbed a million times just in my daily activities. The rest of the time was spent relaxing.
Today I’m planning on doing much of the same. I know my next weigh in/assessment is tomorrow but I don’t care. My shoulder is sore, my tummy hurts, and my body is tired still. So I’m going to take it easy for this morning and see how it looks this afternoon. I’d rather feel better by tomorrow than stress myself to get a better weigh in. This is about the long term success, not one weigh in. So I shall rest! I think it is what my body needs.
Taking a day off or even a few days off won’t ruin me, even though sometimes it feels like it will. I struggle with resting completely. I get worried that I will let myself slip, that after a few days when my body wants to exercise again I will just decide to keep waiting until that feeling passes. And then I will be in the place where I don’t exercise, I don’t feel good, I don’t do the things I love. That is a scary place for me and even though I always come out of it, sometimes it takes weeks and the process is sooo hard. It’s like starting over or at the very least taking several steps backwards. I don’t want to do that, so I don’t want to rest so I don’t fall back there. At least that is what goes through my head sometimes when I decide “I want to do nothing today so my body can chill and take care of itself.”
What about you? Are you cool with rest days or do you struggle with it too? Maybe I’m just alone in that.