This is my 500th post. I didn’t even realize it was my 500th post until I logged on yesterday to post my 499th post. Then it hit me that I’ve been doing this for a while. On Christmas (I had no idea I started on Christmas?) I will hit my two year blogiversary, and even though my blog started out with a different topic, I am proud to say I have stuck with it this long. 500 posts means I have stuck with it through the good times and the bad times. Through gaining weight and losing it again. But after 500 posts I’ve realized something profound:
I am fully committed to living a healthy life.
And today on the day when I post my 500th post, I feel like I am finally embarking on the true beginning of that healthy lifestyle. It feels like the past 5 years and 500 posts were just a preparation stage. It feels like it was all just a learning period for me where I had the opportunity to soak up as much knowledge as possible so I would be prepared to live in a healthy way that I enjoyed. From the first moment I started exercising to lose weight after my senior year in college, to my 3 months spent living and working at Green Mountain, it all feels like it was leading up to this. I’ve moved on from the bad habits and am looking ahead to a bright, shiny, and HEALTHY future. It’s pretty exciting.
It seems fitting that on this average Friday that has no significance to anyone else but me, I’ve started it off by doing things I want to do for the rest of my life. I woke up and spent ten minutes stretching before doing anything else. I went on a walk with the friend I’m living with and we walked a ways to get breakfast. These little things are what I want my life to be about. These little healthy habits are the things I am so grateful for, because they are what have replaced the old habits of bingeing and secret compulsive eating.
All those habits and thought patterns I perfected while living at home are still floating around in my head somewhere. But the fact that I’ve written 500 posts and dedicated 5 years to this process already, assures me that I will not forever be held down by them. It gives me hope that I will continue to live a healthy and happy life, no matter where I end up living. I know now what is good for me and what is not good for me. I know where I can go and where I have to erect boundaries to protect myself. I know how fragile and how strong I can be. I know that my future is exactly what I want it to be.
500 posts means dedication. I am dedicated to this. I am dedicated to this blog, because my public chronicle of my journey has helped me so much already. I am dedicated to exercise, because it makes my body work properly and feel so good. I am dedicated to eating right, because healthy whole foods make my body function better. I am dedicated to staying healthy because it’s want I want more than anything.
I know I’m dedicated to this. I want to know, are you? Are you dedicated to living a healthier life? Are you going to make it happen? I know you can it you want it badly enough. So let’s do it.