I’m actually blogging on the run today using my iPhone. This entire day was dedicated to helping my mom shop. First for groceries and then for all her Christmas shopping. Right now we are taking a break to eat lunch and I figured I would write up a little blog to test the mobile blogging idea.
I love spending time with my mom but I absolutely hate shopping. It’s just not something I enjoy very much, nor have I ever liked it. When I am forced to shop for other people I hate trying to guess what they would like and the anxiety I feel over whether they will actually use it or not. I would honestly rather just give my family members cash for Christmas. Ho, ho, ho. And shopping for myself has never been something I’ve enjoyed doing. It’s hard for me to understand those women who actually shop for fun and sport. I’m nothing like that.
Part of the reason I hate shopping is because I spent so many years having miserable experiences where nothing I tried on would fit. Starting from middle school I had problems finding clothes that fit well. Designers don’t usually have 5’2″ obese teenagers in mind when they make clothes. So after many horrible experiences, around the time I realized I couldn’t fit in anything in normal size stores, I just stopped shopping. I hated going when I knew I wouldn’t find anything. So wore jeans and men’s tshirts all the time. Instead of coats that wouldn’t fit me I wore guys hoodies. I didn’t bother shopping for myself and tried to avoid going with my friends. When they did drag me with them I would buy fat girl items: shoes and accessories that didn’t need to be a certain size.
In college when I lost weight I actually worked in retail. I worked at two different stores in the mall selling clothes. Since I was a smaller size I could fit in the clothes and shopping was a lot easier but still not enjoyable. When you are short like me clothes never really fit right, whether you are a size 8, 14, or 24. So I still never enjoyed shopping. To this day I usually go shopping alone because I hate trying on clothes for other people when they don’t fit. Though I know I can wear the clothes in moat stores, I still avoid shopping. But that’s what I’m doing today! Luckily I’m buying stuff for my brothers, which I find easier than shopping for myself.
Do any of you do this too? Is shopping something you avoid because you don’t/can’t or fear you won’t fit in the clothes? Or have you gotten past that?