The Plan Of Distractions (Plus A Super Big Goal!)

I’m back in Memphis now!  Yay?

I slept 11 hours, but I’m still tired and not completely with the timezone change yet.  Someone told me it would take two weeks to feel completely up to it.  Oh great!

It is hard to decide how I feel about being back here.  I like my family, I like my friends, I even like Memphis.  But I miss Kepa and his family and New Zealand.  I wonder if I will always feel like I want to be in multiple places at once.  I don’t understand why everyone can’t just live in the same place.

Anyway, I’m trying to distract myself from thinking about my current location and situation.  So on to the distractions (to keep me from thinking about missing Kepa) that are really just some BIG ANNOUNCEMENTS in disguise!

BOOK READING

I started reading The Adventures of DietGirl book by Shauna while in New Zealand and now will finish it up, including going back and rereading parts that I bookmarked because they were so amazing and reminded me of my life or assured me that my direction is a good one.  I was surprised by how much we have in common on our journeys.  I’ve read her blog for a while, but had no clue.  I freaking love her book.  I will probably write a more indepth review of it soon, but I just want to say that it is the reason I will never write a book.  Because my book would be very, very similar.  All of the best things I would say have already been written and published (ok, not all).  But on this subject?  DietGirl rocks.

Next I’m going to work my way through the huge list of books I want to read but still haven’t.  I love reading, so this should be fun!

BOOK WRITING

I just said I would never write a book, but in a way, I’m currently writing a book.  It’s not a book that will be published and it’s probably not on the subject you are thinking.  It’s about health blogging.  Yep.  And it’s going to be an ebook.  Basically I know a lot about blogging and making money with blogging.  So I figured I would share all this information and if you want it you can learn all the same stuff it took me over two years to learn.  I wished I had something that sped up the learning process when I started, so I’m making that now.  Basically I figured after showing a few people how to start a wordpress blog I might as well expand and explain how to do everything – from SEO (which gets your blog more visitors) to making money (you could make some grocery money or even thousands a month).  It’s a good distraction, plus I like writing, I like blogging, and I like sharing my knowledge.  So look for this to come out within the next month.

COOKING

Now that I’m home with plenty of free time on my hands, I’ve decided to start learning/practicing cooking again.  I figure it will be a good thing for me to learn how to cook a few things so I’m not always relying on Kepa to cook for me.   So basically I am now searching for recipes to try out.  I want to have a nice stack of tasty things I can make that will keep us both healthy.  I’m looking mostly for dinner recipes – things that are delicious and around 400 – 500 calories.  If you have any great ones, please send them my way!!

THE BIG GOAL

I’ve also set myself a weight loss goal, as a distraction and as something to work towards.  Today I’m joining a gym and as I just mentioned, I’m going to be cooking a lot and trying to eat really healthy.  Here is something I wrote the other day and wasn’t sure if I wanted to post, but decided to anyway.

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The day Kepa hit his goal I decided to lose 100 pounds.

I realized that setting a goal and working toward it wasn’t a bad thing.  It was AMAZING.  It was an awesome thing to watch someone work hard to accomplish something.  And I wanted to do the same.  So I decided to stop selling myself short and go for it.

Up until that point I didn’t set many goals.  My only real goal was to get under 200 pounds, because then I thought I could get health insurance.  That was what had started this whole process and the magical number known as “onederland.”  I only had to hit 199 and my “goals” would be accomplished.

But that is selling myself short.  Telling myself I should stop there or maybe work to weigh 175 and stop there is selling myself way short.  If I want to lose 100 pounds and weigh 150 (still overweight for my height) then I should set that as my goal.  I shouldn’t settle for doing anything less, being anything less.  I should work toward that instead of telling myself I would fail before I even try.

That’s what I’ve been doing up until now.  Telling myself I will fail.  Even while psyching myself up to succeed at losing weight I’ve been telling myself I will fail at losing a lot.  I say things like I would never want to way under 175 because that would be to small for me.  I tell myself I would not want to work hard to lose weight that doesn’t matter because who cares under 200 lbs.   I’ve been telling myself I can lose weight but I can’t lose THAT much weight.  Other people can do it, but I can’t.  I’ve been telling myself I can’t do it.

But I’m done with that shit.

Because I can do this.

I can lose 100 lbs.

I can lose 100 lbs and keep it off.

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That’s been my mantra for the last few days.  I’ve finally convinced myself that I can and will do this.  It will be a nice distraction to work towards during the next few months while I’m over here in the US.

And those are a few of my distractions and plans for the next few months while I’m home, besides working some jobbity jobs.  Looks like I will have enough to keep me busy.  I’m excited?!?!

1. Spring Break Plan
2. Super Tuesday
3. Being Broke Inspires A New Weight Loss Plan
4. Another Goal Accomplished
5. Motivation to Exercise: Reaching A Goal

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