Today I wasn’t sure what to write about. I have a ton of ideas for blog posts, some written down and some half written even, but I couldn’t convince myself to write about any of those. For some reason I felt “blah” about every subject I started with. I suppose now that the initial excitement of my ebook release is over (have you bought a copy yet? have you? have you?), I’m a little blogged out. It’s not that I’m abandoning the blog (NEVER!) but I’m just tired and muddled when I think about what to write about. I’ve been trying to decide what to write about nothing has come out.
If I had more exciting things happening with fitness or weight loss I’d blog about those things. But alas, though my workouts are consistent and daily, they are not exciting. I miss zumba and kickboxing in a bad way. Those are my favorite workouts on the planet and I’m no longer doing them because my gym doesn’t offer classes like that. Yes, I know I can do it at home with a workout video. But are you aware of how not fun that is? I want to be in a class dancing and fighting and sweating with other people. I like my gym for the convenience and the access to weights but I miss the excitement and the love I had for zumba, kickboxing, and yoga.
And because I miss the things I love to do and can’t afford to do anymore, I’m bored with exercise. I’m still doing it, yeah,but it’s not as fun. Plus, I made a decision yesterday.
I’m no longer running.
Yes, I’ve stopped running. I was really proud of myself for running a mile at Fitbloggin. I enjoyed it, I enjoyed pushing myself and the ladies I ran with.
Running might be great for everyone, and I love the novelty of being able to run, but it’s just not worth it yet. My knees don’t deserve to be punished any more than they already are. I genuinely do like running and I enjoy the fact that I can go run a mile, but I hate the need to ice my knees after just that much. Being obese for years really fucked up my knees. I’m going to have to live with that forever, and for now I don’t think running is doing me any favors.
For me this takes a huge step in not comparing myself to anyone else. I can’t watch the Biggest Loser and feel bad because they weigh more than me and are running. I can’t read other blogs and be jealous of people who are running 5ks now and I’m not. I can’t compare myself to anyone else because I need to do what is best for my body right now.
Talk to me again in twenty pounds and I might start running again. Running a 5k is on my to do list. It’s on my list of fitness goals and eventually I will conquer it. I will. Just not yet. Running is just being postponed until I think my body is better able to handle it. I’m no longer trying to push myself to be like other people if it’s just going to cause my body harm.
This was really the blog post I wanted to write but tried to avoid all morning. For some reason admitting that I’m not running anymore for a while makes me sad. But I know it’s for the best, even if now my cardio options are even more boring (walking, elliptical, biking). Hopefully I don’t die of boredom while getting my cardio in!
Have you ever given up or postponed something fitness related?