I wasn’t going to do a weigh in today, but I realize I need to do it just because I need to hold myself accountable. I’m supposed to be holding myself accountable and you guys need to help me out with that.
My last weigh in was April 18. Since then I haven’t weighed in. I’ve just been avoiding the scale because I knew it was up from my previous weight. I knew that the birthday celebrations, the stress eating, the slightly almost depressed eating all added up to a few extra pounds. I wish it wasn’t true, but it is. :(
No video today, but here are the numbers:
Current Weight: 216.3 lbs
Previous Weight: 213.0 lbs
Weight loss: + 3.3 lbs
Weight loss Total: – 34.7 lbs
Starting Weight: 251
I guess I’m a terrible weight loss blogger. I don’t actually seem to be able to lose weight. ;P But I’m still trying. I refuse to regain everything.
I mentioned on twitter a few days ago that I’m tired of weight loss.
It’s true. I’m tired of it. I’m tired of thinking about it. I’m tired of blogging about it. I’m tired of being fat. I’m tired of wanting to be something that I’m not. I’m just so tired of it all. I’m tired of no progress. I’m tired of backward progress. I’m tired of all of it.
I want to be healthy for once in my damn life. I want to not do weigh ins. I want to not need to do weigh ins. I want to not need to track my food.
Since the water is drying up in town and my gym wasn’t affected, tomorrow I’m starting back on my workout every day until July 4th plan. I just want to challenge myself to make it a priority, so I’m going to do it.
I’m tired of the gym, even, but I still like it. I think I’m just tired of everything. Maybe I’m just tired.
But accountability is all I want from this blog and from you, so there it all is.