Part of me no longer wants to talk about numbers on my blog. Yes I’m recommitted to weight loss, but I’m also a bit embarrassed. Even more so when I think of work people happening upon my blog as they sometimes do. They are all supportive but sometimes I wish I could block real life people from reading my blog. Fit into little boxes where I want you to exist and don’t cross over, please!
Anyway, I’m over it. I do want to post numbers if for nothing else as a record for myself and my poor memory. (Seriously, it’s shameful how I google my blog to remember things.) Also, I already posted them on the internet as a comment on Roni’s recent weigh in post. She inspired me to just do it and be brave so here we go.
First, a vlog. I’m serious also about vlogging more so I can see myself on camera. I think it reminds me of what I actually look like better than photos or the mirror, where I pretty much am convinced I look awesome all the time. Go self esteem, go! On to the video.
Well there you have it!
Yes I lost a pound in my first week. Nothing ground breaking or super exciting but it is progress in the right direction which is what I need right now.
Second, here are my numbers, the ones I’ve already shared elsewhere of my highest weight, current weight, and goal weight.
- HW: 255
- CW: 209
- GW: 155
I actually like that format because it makes me feel like I’ve actually made some progress! I’m not 255 anymore, hurray! But yes, I see 155 and think it’s a long way off and almost feel like it’s unattainable. Hard to turn off those negative thoughts sometimes, isn’t it?
Despite the negative thoughts and the embarassment and all of it, I’m plugging along. I’m no longer stuck at my least favorite weight ever: 211. I’m headed toward a new number I’ve never even seen before and never thought possible. I’m doing it. :)