So…
Part of me no longer wants to talk about numbers on my blog. Yes I’m recommitted to weight loss, but I’m also a bit embarrassed. Even more so when I think of work people happening upon my blog as they sometimes do. They are all supportive but sometimes I wish I could block real life people from reading my blog. Fit into little boxes where I want you to exist and don’t cross over, please!
Anyway, I’m over it. I do want to post numbers if for nothing else as a record for myself and my poor memory. (Seriously, it’s shameful how I google my blog to remember things.) Also, I already posted them on the internet as a comment on Roni’s recent weigh in post. She inspired me to just do it and be brave so here we go.
First, a vlog. I’m serious also about vlogging more so I can see myself on camera. I think it reminds me of what I actually look like better than photos or the mirror, where I pretty much am convinced I look awesome all the time. Go self esteem, go! On to the video.
Well there you have it!
Yes I lost a pound in my first week. Nothing ground breaking or super exciting but it is progress in the right direction which is what I need right now.
Second, here are my numbers, the ones I’ve already shared elsewhere of my highest weight, current weight, and goal weight.
- HW: 255
- CW: 209
- GW: 155
I actually like that format because it makes me feel like I’ve actually made some progress! I’m not 255 anymore, hurray! But yes, I see 155 and think it’s a long way off and almost feel like it’s unattainable. Hard to turn off those negative thoughts sometimes, isn’t it?
Despite the negative thoughts and the embarassment and all of it, I’m plugging along. I’m no longer stuck at my least favorite weight ever: 211. I’m headed toward a new number I’ve never even seen before and never thought possible. I’m doing it. :)
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You have a really fun personality which comes across in your video! I love Ju Ju (is that how you spell it?) and the word reactions- our dog’s like that too! Ours is a rescue dog and is a spaniel, labrador, collie mix. Great for getting me out for walks- I’m actually pleasantly surprised by my dedication to walking her!
Thanks. I like to think I’m fun but of course I’m super biased. JuJu is a pretty fun dog because she is very clever. She gets me out for walks too. Yay dogs!
Congrats on the loss! Hope you’re feeling better. Love the Juju clips. I miss playing word games with our pup. Her favorites were byebye, get de mail (which equated to byebye), outside and any curse word coming from the kitchen because she knew I dropped food. :-)
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I’m going to try to include JuJu clips in all my videos. She is waaay cute and so good on video. Haha.
You are so beautiful, and so full of life, I think the world sometimes get stuck on numbers and not health. I realize you need to be weight concious to be really healthy, but you don’t have to be so stuck on it that life passes us by. I love you and I support your goal, but I also support your happiness in getting there. My beautiful daughter and lovely grand-dog!!
I’m so with your mom!!!
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Thanks Mom. That pretty sums up everything. I want to be healthier but no way will I let life pass me by right now!
Also, JuJu says she loves you!
Congrats on the loss!! And WOW, 209 is a far cry from 255 – it’s like the halfway point between the high weight and the goal weight!
Thanks! So true! I think that’s why I like putting it that way… it reminds me I have actually come a long way!
Iiiiii can relate. Posting my weight for the first time in 4 months yesterday (and fessing up to the gain I knew was looming overhead) was really difficult for me, even as someone who posted my weight every week for the first 1 1/2 years of writing my blog! Still, even though a bunch of people at work (who do read my blog) and pretty much anyone on Facebook has access to the specific numbers of my weight, I think it’s been an essential part of my weight loss, and weight acceptance! I know that even when I’m “done” (heavy emphasis on the quotes there) with active weight loss, my weight might still seem high to some people. It helps me to be more comfortable with my weight (in that, it’s just a number way) by putting it out there.
I feel the exact same way about all of that!
Woot woot on the loss! Now if I could just do the video ha.
Juju is adorable! So big now.
Do it! Video is fun! And a bit scary, but fun! We could all do it! :)
Don’t give up Mary!! I was on a 7 month plateau where it didnt matter how hard I counted points, exercised (Zumba up to 3x/week = 60+ activity points) or not my weight wouldn’t budge!! Then I found out I was allergic to wheat on July 10th and have eaten gluten free since then and have lost 8.2 lbs only by staying away from wheat!!!
I’m convinced we have to keep at it until we figure out the unique keys to our bodies!! I wanted to quit so many times because it just didn’t matter what I did my weight wouldn’t budge!! I now enjoy eating again and my tummy feels SO MUCH better!!
Big hugs!! You’ve been my inspiration since October of 2010 and I’ve just now got my 10% keychain = 32.4 lbs!! I believe our overall lifestyle changes and habits WILL make positive health benefits in our lives even when we are not seeing the reflection on the dumb scale!! Lol
Thank you for you honesty as it kept me on my course!!
Big hugs!! Libby
Thanks so much Libby! I’m actually going to try eating less wheat/giving wheat up soon and see if it makes a difference. Probably just even cutting back on that and sugar should be helpful. But yeah every body is different and we react differently to differ things.
I’m so proud of you for getting your 10% keychain! Great job! Keep it up!
I’m a long-time reader/lurker but I felt compelled to come out of hiding. Why should you be embarrassed? You may not have reached your 155 goal but you’ve also learned enough so you aren’t back at 255. I think you are doing great and have been doing great considering all the changes in your life; all good but changes that affect us nonetheless. Even with all your adventures of going to NZ then back to the US then back to NZ, missing your family & your husband, changing jobs and homes, you *always* focus on the healthy parts. It may not always be about weight loss but I find it’s almost always about healthy: healthy relationships, healthy activity, healthy enjoyment. You enjoy your life and everything you do is something you’ll look back on fondly. I always find some hint of positivity in your blog posts, even when you’re not feeling 100% positive. I love that about your blog. :)
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That’s true. Man, thank you so much for delurking because that was a great comment. Sometimes you guys see things I don’t see.
I mentioned the embarrassed bit just because of a really judgmental personal who I had seen looking at my blog previously that I really didn’t want reading or in my personal life at all. But it’s not enough to stop me from blogging. :)
Your numbers are almost identical to mine! HW 258, CW 210, GW 150. Don’t be embarrassed- you’ve made progress, right?
LOL I thought about vlogging for about two seconds, then remembered how much I hate still cameras- no way am I doing video!
Your hair is looking great Mary! Did you color it darker?
Nope though I was thinking about it. I like having darker hair. :)
On the fight against overweight it is important to grab optimism and perseverance from every piece of success, giving up is not a choice but to fight until we get our ideal weight, thank you for sharing your experience!
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