In many, many ways this has been a challenging year for me. I’ve lost a lot and gained a lot (mostly perspective). I’ve twisted my life into new and unfamiliar territory in every aspect possible which continues to stretch me today.
I’m returning to blogging today simply because it’s always been a comfort to me and all this NEW NEW NEW makes me crave familiarity. A Merry Life is like a familiar friend I used to communicate with a ton but drifted away from as life changed and progressed.
Blogging too much about my personal life ended up being very awkward when things went south. It seemed safest and smartest to run away and deal with things in private. That break was much appreciated as I built myself back up stronger than ever.
After several months off I’ve realized I missed blogging. Writing is something I have to do to feel whole. It’s something that keeps me (mostly) sane. Perhaps I could do with the chronic over-sharing part, but that comes with it. I’ve been doing this since I was 13 and first got internet access at home. It’s just part of what I do. Whenever I rip it away I always bring it back because I miss blogging.
Blogging is definitely a form of self-expression laced with narcissism. At least personal blogging is such, though I’m sure gossip bloggers and tech bloggers and others who don’t blog about their own live have a different experience. Regardless of the downsides and the occasional heartache of being a blogger, it’s something I enjoy.
Deal with it.
(That’s more for me than you.)
As an update on my life, in many ways I’m in the exact same spot I was in when I started my blog several years ago. There were a lot of different jobs and loves and adventures in between, but I feel like I’m starting over in many areas. Once again I’m wondering where my life will go, what adventures I will go one, who I will love, where I will live, what I will blog about and what I will do to make a difference in other people’s live.
I don’t have many answers to those questions yet but I do know I want to make a difference. I want to make the lives of others better than they were before they met me. I don’t have many goals right now but that is one of them.
Love God. Love others. Love myself.
That’s the only plan I’ve got for now. Just wanted to say I missed you all. Nice comments, mean comments, friendships, haters. I missed you all. Hope all is well for you.