I posted this video on YouTube a few days ago, ranting about pregnancy and all the symptoms I’ve had so far.
I’ll admit, part of the problem is my expectations going into pregnancy. I assumed I’d have super easy pregnancies like my mom who had 5 with no complications. I’ve had problem after problem even though I’m technically a normal, low-risk pregnancy.
While that’s a huge blessing that I don’t have any major risk factors, I still think pregnancy kinda sucks. Months of sickness and pain and fatigue… It gets very old even when it’s all worth it in the end.
I also found out tonight someone I know died recently from complications of child birth. That is terrifying.
I don’t know all the details but she was only a year or two older than me and obviously didn’t expect to die giving birth. I don’t expect that outcome either but knowing it happens and recently happened to someone I know makes the process a little scarier, especially as it gets ever closer. My anxiety level has been rising and this news shot it up to a new level.
Already daily in the third trimester I play the game of trying to figure out why I’m feeling pain or uncomfortable feelings. Is it something basic and normal or something to worry about? I try to read posts from other moms and rely on my doctor, but ultimately there is no certainty in this process.