Today’s post is a little bit of a mixed bag. I’ve got a lot of different things I want to share but no real connecting theme. Enjoy!
The Reasons I Blog
First, I wanted to share the reasons why I blog, prompted by MizFit’s post: Why do I blog? I originally started this particular blogging journey in Dec 2007 with no direction. When the new year rolled around I must have made a resolution about health and my blogging activities after that turned toward journaling my story, my progress, my many struggles, my successes, and my thoughts. Over the last year and a half I’ve done that and will continue to do so for the foreseeable future. When I started writing I really wasn’t doing it for anyone else. I wanted to get those things down on paper, so to speak, so they wouldn’t take up space in my head. I didn’t want to tell anyone I knew about my blog and even now only about 5 of my real friends know about it. I had no real intention for an audience but over time through finding similar blogs and awesome people online I’ve found an audience and community that supports me. It has become one of the most rewarding things in my life for this very reason.
I now blog because I need to, because I want to, because I’ve been told I’m a good writer, and because I need a place to write. I blog because it is in my blood as a natural writer; it is a habit I can’t and don’t want to break free from. Although I’ve tired myself with writing and thinking specifically about weight loss (and often about myself) I am still completely enthralled and excited to be living a healthy life and sharing my thoughts on it. I do spend a lot of time writing, thinking about posts, responding to e-mails, etc. I agree with MizFit that it would be nice to be compensated for my the time I spend working on my blog. I don’t want to get rich, but it would be nice to be able to feed myself healthy food without worrying if I am spending too much. I worry a lot about paying my bills and trying to help out my mom with hers. Sometimes it is difficult to justify spending so much time in the blogging world without making enough money to even buy myself food. (I went grocery shopping yesterday and almost had a breakdown when I had to pay, hehe.)
Feeling Like Myself
Also, I wanted to say, I feel more and more like myself lately. When I came home from a lot of different situations added up to a very bleak picture for me. I admit it, I binged a time or two in those first days back. It was just all too much. And then everything changed. I moved out, which has turned out to be a fantastic decision. I love living with my friend because it is almost like I am living alone. I probably could go the whole month without actually seeing him in the apartment, which has given me freedom and space like I wanted. I also have a lot of friends in town that normally aren’t around. I’ve been spending as much time with them as I can because they bring me back down to earth and help me feel like who I once was and who I want to be.
On my post about my priorities, FLG left this awesome comment: “My priority is becoming the person I see myself being, which includes being healthy and losing weight and other things.” Great comment! That is EXACTLY what I feel like I am doing. I am trying to be the person that I see myself being when I think about my life and my future. Part of that is living a healthy lifestyle. There is a lot more involved, but I feel like right now I am the person that I see myself as. When I think about myself I don’t see a binging, unhealthy girl. I see an active, social, fun, adventurous, and HEALTHY girl, a girl who has no problem with doing things like ziplining through a jungle^. That is what I feel like I really am and want to be and now my actions match up with the mind version of me.
Food Bank Donation
And finally… There were a total of 83 comments on my post about feeling shallow and donating money to the food bank. I promise I won’t be asking/begging for comments ever again after this. I said I would donate 10 cents or more, so I decided to give 30 cents per comment and donate $25.00 to the MidSouth Food Bank. This will effectively put my bank account at zero and give me warm fuzzies in my heart at the same time. For those of you matching my donation… pony up! You can totally give whatever you want though – thanks for donating!