I think feeling the way I did yesterday made this experience at Green Mountain at Fox Run a million times more useful for me. I was emotional, upset, and needing a release. Instead of doing what I might have in the past and finding food (not impossible to do here), I sat with my emotions, typed out a blog post, and dealt with it. It wasn’t pleasant on my end and it wasn’t the most popular thing I’ve ever written. But it was necessary.
Up until this point I’ve had an amazing experience here. Every day was fun, I was up, I couldn’t believe how lucky I was to be here. And then yesterday I felt all that stuff I talked about on top of stuff I can’t even blog about, and it all just crashed. But I didn’t turn to food. I didn’t even think of turning to food. I’m almost amazed at how my brain worked in the ways they have been telling us about in our classes here. My mind didn’t go through the same process it used to. THIS IS PROGRESS.
An emotional low is part of the process for me to progress and change. I needed to feel that and I needed to let myself feel that so I could work out the reaction. It would be great to spend three months in Vermont being perfect every day, but that wouldn’t really help me grow as much. That process of thinking through “bad” emotions and reacting to them in better ways is one of the main reasons why I am here.
So, thank you for listening to my blogging rambles and for all the encouragement. It really, really helped as well. Everyone has a bad day now and again and I really appreciate the love I got during mine. <3 Today is a new day, and one with snow at that. I woke up to a really pretty day with a really wonderful and refreshed attitude. I’m excited about everything that is to come and very, very excited about how far I’ve come and what I’ve learned.
Oh, and want more beauty? Here is a picture from a hike before the snow when the colors were AMAZING.