EATING DISORDER AWARENESS
Thanks for all the great comments and emails about the post on compulsive overeating yesterday. That was much scarier for me to admit to doing than emotional eating. Everyone emotionally eats a little bit (I firmly believe this) and it’s okay on a small scale. But food addiction? Compulsive overeating? Feeling voids with food? Scary to admit, scary to talk about. Why is it so scary? No one wants to be negatively judged. But when people who deal with it but never talk about it, it just makes others who deal with it feel alone. And that gets us nowhere.
And apparently this week (Feb 21 -27) is National Eating Disorders Awareness Week (thanks to Jody for bringing this to my attention!). Cooly enough there theme is: It’s Time To Talk About It.
Their mission? “Our aim of NEDAwareness Week is to ultimately prevent eating disorders and body image issues while reducing the stigma surrounding eating disorders and improving access to treatment. Eating disorders are serious, life-threatening illnesses — not choices — and it’s important to recognize the pressures, attitudes and behaviors that shape the disorder.” I agree with that. Eating disorders aren’t simply eating choices gone astray, they are a serious thing that you need to take seriously. There is no shame in them and there is no shame in reaching out and getting help. I wish someone would have told my 14 year old self that. So instead, my 23 year old self will tell you that. Don’t be ashamed and don’t be afraid. If you ever want to talk about it just send me an email through my contact page.
Wednesday’s workout was a short one and I’m so thankful for that. The weights part of the workout was less intense, but I still got on the treadmill to run.
On the treadmill for 15 minutes, 9 of which were spent running. I still can’t say I enjoy running.
But there is something about running I like. Usually within those two minute intervals of running there is about 30 seconds where it feels… easy. Where it feels like running is not hard at all and I could probably run forever. I like that feeling. It never lasts since my mind and body switch back to struggle mode, but it does happen. And when it happens I feel encouraged. I feel like maybe this time I will finish this. Maybe this time I won’t give up. Maybe this time I will transform myself into someone who can at least jog three miles without dying.
And then of course there is always the post run feeling where it’s like “OMG! I did it!” Regardless of how much I ran or how far, every time I get done I’m going to think that. I’m going to be proud of myself. Because progress builds upon itself and the more times I do this the further I will get. So I need to appreciate the small steps like this that are preparing me for the big picture.
But it’s hard!
It’s hard to see the small steps as successes. Both in running, in weight loss, in life.
I think we all have trouble with this. Even if mentally we know the small steps are leading us to our ultimate goal, it’s easy to lose focus. It’s easy to forget that the small successes are leading us somewhere. It’s much easier to look at them and say, “Oh, it’s not enough. I have SO far to go.”
But I’m celebrating small steps even if I have to force myself to do so. I’m also celebrating rest days like yesterday. Glorious!
This weekend I’ve got BIG plans. Okay, just kidding. I’m babysitting a friends kids to pick up some extra money and working on the health blogging ebook (coming out in early March! Yay!). I’m also putting together my new scooter and will take pics for the blog. I do have some BIG announcements coming up soon, but if you read my other musings online you probably already know what I’m going to announce. Either way, life is good. Have a great weekend!