One of my goals is to get under 200 pounds. After living the majority of my life at 200+ pounds now, this is a pretty big goal for me.
However, it’s also one that I keep failing to reach. I get ever so close and then retreat in the wrong direction. Time and time again I get to 205 or 204 and then do something silly to start gaining weight again. This isn’t my only goal. There are goals beyond it, on the other side, that I haven’t even thought about yet because of this sticking point. I’m ready to get past it and move on to something else. I just have to figure out why I don’t.
It boils down to something pretty simple: I’m scared.
I’m scared to succeed. I’m scared to fail. I’m scared of actually accomplishing the things I’ve made my goals. I let the fear stop me. I’ve let it stop me several times already. The fear is tied in with my anxiety and the closer I get to creating the life that I want the stronger the fear becomes.
This time I’m not letting this stupid fear derail me. I don’t want to be so comfortable with failure. I’m reading up about the fear of success and understanding why this happens here and in other areas of my life. I’ve found through therapy and self-help stuff over the last two years that knowledge about something really helps. If you understand it, you can control it.
So I’m just gonna keep on going, if that’s okay.
Three pounds away.
Do you ever struggle to achieve goals? Is the fear of success something you’ve encountered?