Tonight I watched the first episode of The Biggest Loser Season 12. I also followed along with the conversations around the show on Twitter.
Interesting tweet, I thought.
Then after a few minutes of rumination I realized that I could have tweeted this myself. Every season. For 12 seasons (yeah I’ve watched them all even though I dislike aspects of the show). I’ve watched every one of them yet I’m still categorized as obese. I’ve been inspired and I’ve watched them sweat and wanted to do the same but I’m still at a weight just below what could get me on the show (though I’m not totally sure of my weight right now).
I watched all those seasons of The Biggest Loser and wanted to do what they did but I just didn’t. Or at least I didn’t enough. I didn’t reach the same level of success that season upon season of contestant has reached. I lost some weight and stalled. I’ve kept off 40ish pounds (go me!) but I haven’t gotten to my goal yet. There are reasons for it like the obvious fact that I can’t workout 6 hours a day. But really? The only thing that matters is that they have succeeded where I haven’t.
Sometimes this fact, the fact that I’ve not made massive progress when I could have, makes me insecure about blogging. Why would anyone want to read the story of a girl that has taken years to do what some people do in 5 months? Why would anyone want to read the story of a girl who still hasn’t accomplished what she set out to do? Sometimes I wonder these things and I know that people stop reading my blog for these reasons.
But you know? It won’t change the fact that I’m going to keep going.
So I watched the first episode of season 12. It felt different this time. This time I felt inspired in a way that I know will translate into action because I’ve already started down that path.
As it turns out I’m not the only one who has done this same thing and feels the same way. Swim Bike Mom just wrote a similar post about the Biggest Loser this season.
Like Meredith, I’m not setting any goals to be as thin as the competitors by the end of the season. I’m not setting weight goals but I am planning to workout as hard as possible and eat as clean as possible and see where it gets me. I want to be an athlete and that’s what athletes do. Really I’ve already been on my way towards this and The Biggest Loser season 12 just came along with an extra boost of motivation.
Though I’ve done a triathlon and other athletic endeavors I still don’t feel like I can call myself an athlete, yet that is my biggest goal. I feel like I’m right on the edge of claiming that word. Almost an athlete but not quite there yet. For some reason I always feel like people leave the show as an athlete and that’s what I want. It’s a level I haven’t yet reached but I feel like I will this time. I feel like I’m close. Very, very close.
Will this be the season I watch where at the end of the show I’m as athletic as the people who finish? Will this be the season where I transform myself into an athlete? I think it will be.
Will this be the season you finally are inspired to lose weight/get strong/become an athlete?