Sometimes, I’m embarrassed by this blog.
Like this morning during a work meeting when my boss pulled it up. He did that to show a client I know what I’m talking about regarding blogging. And I do. I understand the ins and outs of blogging and linking and SEO and building traffic.
But despite the momentary embarrassment, I’m really not embarrassed. I’m glad my blog isn’t anonymous and I’m glad it’s a part of me. I’m glad that I post photos of myself and my life. I’m proud that people can see me and recognize me and know me because of this blog.
(And I’m glad I can talk about makeup. It’s my second day wearing Bare Minerals and I’m seriously in looooove.)
I’m glad I’m open about my struggles with binge eating, and overcoming verbal/mental abuse, therapy and making my life better. I’m glad I am honest about being healthier and share so much of myself with people who relate.
I just needed to say that and sort out my own feelings on the matter. It was an embarrassing moment, but I’m not embarrassed. Not by a long shot.
This morning’s workout was great! I spent 45 minutes at the gym doing cardio and some upper body strength training. I realized this morning while checking myself out in the mirror that my legs are definitely smaller. I need to take my measurements at some point, but I’m pretty sure I am finally shrinking again.
I have a therapy session this afternoon. I’m excited because I’ve actually been doing amazing in the past three weeks. Something clicked in my head and I realized I’m stronger than the crap in my life. I’m resilient and strong. Since things have been going well with eating and exercise and standing up for myself I’m thinking we might touch on the subject of my anxiety.
Today is a good day. I feel good. It’s a great start to the week. Hope you all are having just as great a day!
If you are a blogger have you ever been embarrassed by your blog? Do you keep it anonymous or not share the URL? As a blog reader would you ever be embarrassed to meet a blogger?
I was “outed” about the blog when my story was in a magazine last year. A coworker who was proud of me brought in the magazine for everyone at work to read and referred them to my website. It was embarrassing and unnerving to be suddenly “out there.” I don’t write about anything inappropriate but it was still weird!
I think I pretty much have to keep my anonymous, though I suppose I could post pics at some point. But as an attorney, I wouldn’t want my name tied to my blog where I feel like I can write about whatever, even if it’s something “unprofessional”. I’m pretty careful about my online presence with my name. I untag any fb picture of me in a swimsuit, or with a glass of wine in my hand — I just wouldn’t want anyone I know professionally to see too much of my personal life. And back when I was in private practice, I really didn’t want someone like opposing counsel to be able to see much about me or know much about my life. It just doesn’t seem like the right thing to do for my career, you’re lucky to be in one where you can be so open.
Realistically, I think anyone in my circle of running friends would definitely be able to ID me as the author if they read the blog, and I think a blog reader could probably find my real name (and photo) based on info I’ve shared on the blog, but I just wouldn’t want to link the two officially so someone searching for me would find the blog. I have a few real world friends who read the blog, but they don’t usually comment, though sometimes they’ll mention it in person or in email, so I know they still read.
As a reader, I’d love to meet the writers of some of my fave blogs!
That makes sense. I think for some professions you just can’t have stuff floating around. I think lawyers and teachers are two that especially wouldn’t want that. I think in your case it definitely makes sense to be you and have real friends able to recognize that but not link your real identity to the blog one.
I keep my blog fairly anonymous (not using my real name) because I’m a high school English teacher. I feel similarly to Carina.
A long time ago I had a different blog on a different platform, and on that one, I used my real name, photos of me, the works. It had info about going out drinking for girls’ nights, my struggles with my weight, people I was dating, frustrations with work, etc. Then a student found the blog, and things went south. I had to delete it immediately and thankfully, nothing serious happened. Since then, I’ve kept my blog anonymous, although I do post photos of myself on my blog. And since I don’t include info about dating (since I’m not dating right now), I’m less worried about someone finding it.
The thing is, people hold teachers up to a different standard than “normal” people, and since then, I’ve been very careful about what I post about myself online.
It would be embarrassing for a student, parent, or colleague to know exactly what I weigh, but at the same time, they see me everyday, so it can’t be too much of a surprise. I wouldn’t be as upset about someone finding this blog as I was about that one from years ago.
Definitely understand teachers not having blogs with their real names/identities. You really are held up to a different standard and students/parents can and will use that kind of thing against you. Sad but true. A lot of my friends are teachers or work in schools and they are very, very careful about what they share and do online.
It definitely makes a difference depending on industry and profession!
The most important thing I hope is not to be embarassed with yourself and things you do.
None of my family know about my blog – but my boyfriend, ex colleagues and some close friends do. Not many of my close friends remember to read my blog though – because I don’t feed it to facebook at all. Instead, I pretty much only promote it through twitter – I somehow feel much more anonymous on twitter and I don’t mind if people find it that way and read it. I call it my “discovery blog” or my “secret blog” – I never write anything I don’t want people to read, but I just don’t actively push it I guess.
Maybe one day, but for now, I am happy with my few readers :)
I am still pretty new at blogging so I can’t say I’ve been embarrased yet, but I don’t know if I would be because it’s expected to be read by the public.
Again, being new, I’ve never had the opportunity to meet another blogger, but I would love to at some point if it became a possibility.
Jody - Fit at 53 says
Yes to strong & sexy!!! Glad you are enjoying the weights! Have you tried on a pair of pants or anything that might sow you “the smaller” by just being loose! :-)
You are awesome :) That is only SLIGHTLY embarassing! You’re a rockstar :)
Cynthia (It All Changes) says
I don’t keep my blog anonymous but I purposely leave things off because of my profession. People hold me as a pastor to a different standard instead of remembering I’m a real person too.
Jack Sh*t says
I’m only embarrassed by my blog when somebody reads it…
Andrew @ 100 Pounds says
People tell me on occasion how brave it is that I put everything out on the table when I blog and let the whole world see my struggles. I really don’t see any other way to do it. If I didn’t do it, I don’t think I’d hold myself accountable. Hell, it’s hard enough to hold myself accountable as it is.
Lorinda @ Waisting Away says
Funnily, I’m only embarrassed by my blog with people I know. Strangers? No problem!
While I can be open and honest about my binge eating and anxiety my biggest concern is whether or not I’m a good enough writer. Oh the funny things that go on in our heads!
Keep up the fabulous work!
Well, blogging can be a virtual tatoo…. make sure to never write something you would regret! It’s like facebook, remember that you don’t really own any more the content you published. So my advice: think about how you would react in 5 years reading to post you are about to publish, what would your family and co-workers think while reading. But at the same moment, be proud of your life and sharing great experiences can be liberating!
Sometimes I feel I expose too much about myself in my blogs. I like writing stuffs about myself such as what I think, what I hate and what I’m up to. It takes a lot of weight off my shoulders but I think some of things I have written should be omitted from my contents. I make sure to read my draft, and omit things that I feel that are unnecessary.
I live a double (blogging) life. My boyfriend is the only person in my ‘real’ life who knows that I write a blog. I am really embarrassed for the people in my life to know how much I actually weigh. I’m also really private. I rarely talk about my struggles and challenges with people in my life and I think by sharing my blog with them would invite those conversations anytime and anywhere. I’m not ready for that.
I will probably share my blog with the people in my life someday, but I am just not there yet.
Mary you look amazing!! You have glowing skin and beautiful hair and awesome glasses and you are going to be a sexy, sexy bride!!
PS I use the same skin make-up!
Thank you so much Sarah!
I’m not embarrassed by my blog but I am also not willing to share it with people I know right now. Other than my husband. I find that once people find out they are judgmental an you become the topic of conversation when your not there to defend yourself. I’ve started clean eating recently and I decided I would share this information with people and boy am I regretting that. I get the well are you aloud to eat that, shouldn’t you eat this instead. Or for all the work your putting into your eating you should be dropping the weight faster. It just frustrates me so I choose to not allow them into my blog until I can handle the drama that will come with it. I do plan on posting pictures without my face in the near future and like a lot of people if anyone I knew read the blog they could make the connection.
I realized a long time ago that no matter what people are going to talk about you when you are not around. You can’t control and you can’t stop it (unless you avoid all human contact). So I just don’t worry about being the topic of other people’s conversations because that in no way affects me.
I can’t believe you get all those comments to your face though. You must know some very judgmental, nosy people because no one ever tells me that stuff. And if they do I will stand up for myself and shut that stuff down fast.
Tiffany (This Is...The After) says
This is exactly why I haven’t shared mine with people I know either. I’ve gotten the, “you’ve lost too much weight” comments too many times for my liking.
I found that people I know in real life are not that interested in my blog – although I have been surprised at times to hear that certain people read it. I was rather uncomfortable recently when I inadvertently let my blog name slip and my boss said that he would check it out, since he had no clue what a blog actually was… This was at a time when I was sharing deeply personal stuff. But I got over my discomfort. This is me. Yes, I am trying to figure a lot of things out, but it doesn’t detract one iota from my job as Financial Manager. I am good at what I do, no matter what I write about in my private capacity. And I don’t write about work.
My family don’t read it, and I’m cool with that. It’s a place to vent. I wish my husband would read it though…
Before I had my blog, I was cohost of a podcast (back when podcasts were newer and popular) and this blog is actually an offshoot of the podcast. But it got kinda popular and people I’d meet would be talking to me, saying something about something I never talked to them about. And id say, um how on earth do you know that? And they’d say oh it was on your podcast. So that wasn’t really embarrassing but def very weird.
I don’t give out my blog to the people at my office. I tend to keep my outside of work pretty separate, although I’m not embarrassed about it, I don’t put really private stuff on my blog at all actually. I write more private stuff as comments on OTHER people’s blogs, cuz my family is less likely to read it! There are some things I would feel strange people at work or family knowing, so I just don’t write it. But I don’t really care what strangers know. Or friends, for the most part. I even hand out business cards when people (non work people) ask me about my blog.
I would never be embarrassed to meet a blogger in real life. I would be happy.
Tiffany (This Is...The After) says
I haven’t felt ready to share my blog with people I know yet. IDK, I just feel more comfortable sharing with strangers. I’m shy IRL, so I think it would shock people to the point of judgement. Funny thing is, I had the idea to create it in the first place from getting asked the same questions over and over in person about my weight loss from people I know.