Today has been my first full day of going through the program at Green Mountain at Fox Run. Let me tell you something – I’m tired. I even snuck a little 30 minute nap into my packed schedule but still managed to finish out the day counting down the minutes until my eyes close for the night. Apparently I need to go to sleep earlier! I’ve been busy, in a good way, learning new things and exercising, exercising!
Over the past couple of years I’ve learned a lot about how to live a healthy life and how to not live a healthy life. Despite all the things I know about it I’ve clearly had a couple key elements missing that have prevented lasting success. After the first day of the program I feel like I will find the missing pieces here with all I’m going to learn. The instructors and even other participants have a wealth of knowledge and life experience that I’m already soaking up. They have a lot to teach me and I’m eager to learn.
Yet I feel myself at times pulling back from what I’m being taught. Even though I know I can benefit sometimes a certain thought or concept can distract me from fulling buying into the philosophy. For example, the program here teaches mindfulness. Great thing. Wonderful thing. But the mere mention of cutting the connection to the screen to just be here and exist for three months, had me rebelling mentally against the whole concept. I’m not against mindfulness at all, when I really think about it. Being present in all moments is a great thing to practice. It’s just the thought of cutting out my blogging, my friends online, my only connection to my outside life sounds ludicrous. I know the topic was meant for people who fritter away time online, but honestly the time I do spend on online activities means a lot to me. It’s how I’ve met amazing people, how I’ve made money and found opportunities, and how I’ve shared and discovered parts of myself that were buried pretty deep. Some people journal. I blog. That’s just how it is.
But I don’t want to let the little disagreements like that get in the way of the bigger picture. And there is a fabulous bigger picture to be seen here. The non-dieting philosophy on eating and positive approach to moving more is one that I embrace whole-heartedly. There is so much to experience here. I’m already trying new things like tonight when I went to a Kripalu Danskinetics class. It was all about dancing and expressively moving the body in free ways that we normally don’t let ourselves to get in touch with the body. It’s something I NEVER would have tried outside of this experience. It’s just not something that really appealed to me, but the class was amazing, freeing, and bursting with good feelings. There is so much positive energy here! But like in the real world there are energy vampires waiting to suck it away. Some people just can’t look at glasses as being half full no matter how much is in them. But nothing will suck away my positive energy – not other people, not my own negative thoughts. Nooooope. :) I feel so good I wish I could bottle it up and hand it out to everyone (if you’d like a preview copy of the feeling before I figure out the bottling process, go exercise for two hours for some kickass endorphins).
Speaking of which…. Have you exercised today? What did you do?? Did you feel AMAZING afterwards?