I am planning on eventually doing all my updates through video so I can see the progress as I document it, but today will be a written post.
Really I am glad today will not be a video because I am not feeling 100 percent. There are several reasons for this, some of which I don’t feel like sharing. The others? The relationship with the boy is no more (or at least not what it was… I suppose we are still friends), the bank account is empty from the unexpected expense of a trip, and my weigh in was not a good one.
To sum it up, I feel alone, broke and fat. Good way to start out the new year, right? At least there is plenty of room for improvement! (Uh, anyone want to set me up, donate a dollar, or work out with me? Please?)
Don’t get worried about me. I know things are not really that bad. I just need a bit of time to wallow in all that is sad before I pick up the pieces and move along. Unfortunately the wallow time comes during a weigh in post and you get to read about it along with the weight loss progress update. Sorry for that. Lets get to the real reason for this post…
First weight loss update of 2009
Yesterday was my first weigh in at Weight Watchers for the new year…
+2 lbs. Yep, I gained 2 pounds while I was on my little vacation.
I love snowboarding and walking around in the snow for exercise. And I did exercise a lot during the 3 full days I was in Winter Park, Colorado. But it was not enough to counteract the terrible food I ate and the two full days I spent on a bus to travel from Memphis to Winter Park and back again. The junk food and two days of idleness caught up with me and helped me pack on some weight. Gaining weight is not hard for my body to do so it jumped on this special opportunity.
That sounds like a good excuse, but the last few weeks have been a steady climb up the scale. This is actually my highest weight in the last 4 years. Wow. I honestly can’t believe I have relapsed so far and allowed my weight to creep up so high. So much for weight loss blogging to keep me accountable. Maybe in the loooooooong run it will.
Goals for 2009
As it is the first of the year I have been thinking a lot about my goals for this new year. Not resolutions, just goals. Last year I set out a bunch of goals that I never met and although I don’t want to do the same thing this year, I do need to set some goals so I have something to work toward. Some of the goals from last year are going to make it on to this list along with some new ones I want to achieve this year.
- Run a 5k.
- Complete a triathlon.
- Improve my cooking skills.
- Move out.
- Reach 175 pounds.
I’m sorry you’re year is off to such a rough start, and I won’t waste time trying to convince you to cheer up or suck it up or anything of that sort. End of a relationship? Hitting a high point with a weigh in? It sucks. It sucks it sucks IT SUCKS. So feel how you need to feel right now but give yourself a deadline of when you have to stop wallowing (two days? three days? a week?) and when that deadline day rolls around force yourself to make a plan of attack.
In the meantime, I suggest a hot shower, some warm PJs, a cup of tea and Lifetime… lots of Lifetime.
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2 lbs is not a big gain AT ALL. Don’t get discouraged with that… We’re all in the same boat. The fact that you went to WI is the first really great step in the right direction!
Great goals for 2009, btw. You can do it!
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Just to say, I think that by acknowledging that you’re sad and being with it instead of smothering the feeling with food makes this a healthy forward looking post!
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@Fat Bridesmaid
I love your advice. I think I can only handle a day or maybe two of this wallowing. Tonight will definitely be filled with Lifetime and yummy tea. It sounds like the perfect prescription for this mood.
@Nancy
Its not too bad. But the cumulative smal weight gains each week for the last couple months have left me in a bad place. But you are right… I am taking steps in the right direction again. Finally!
@aishchai
That is a good point. I am so good at smothering any feeling with food that sometimes I don’t even realize that simply not doing that is progress for me. Guess this is a pretty healthy forward looking post.
While I am unaware of exactly what and how much you ate on your trip, I highly doubt with all of that activity you gained an actual 2 lbs. I would venture to say its mostly water weight and you just happened to weigh in on a day you were holding more water than normal. Contrary to popular thought, lots of exercise can actually cause quite a bit of water retention.
Hang in there and stay positive! It’s only the beginning of 2009, you have a full year to work towards your goals!
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@JC
Water retention is highly possible. But I also ate a lot of bad foods on my trip that I normally don’t eat. I may have even doubled my normal calorie intake on some days. So it is also very possible that I really did just gain two pounds. :(
But you are right. Its the beginning of the year and I have all year to acomplish these goals! I am pretty excited about that thought. :)
Are you weighing yourself at the same time every single day of the week?
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have to chime in with the IT IS NOT A LOT and even if it isnt water weight it shall flee your bod fast in 2009.
I love your goals —especially the notion of video posts to track your progress.
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@Derek
Yes. I weigh myself every morning, and my meetings are at the same time every week Saturdays (or Sundays if I miss the previous day) at 1.
I make goals too… not resolutions. If you were in California I’d work out with you!
it’s a new week. a NEW WEEK!
here’s to a great one for you (ok and for me. may I add myself in?)
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Oh Mary, I’m sorry to hear that your year is off to a bit of a rough start. But I have a feeling, from what I’ve read of your blog (sorry, I don’t think I’ve commented before!), that you’ve got so much strength and inner power to move forward and achieve everything you want this year. I liked Fat Bridesmaid’s advice – I second all her suggestions, but might I add a yoga session to the list? That always makes me feel amazing if I’m feeling a bit down.
Remember, it will be spring in a few months.
Sending you lots of hugs and positive vibes. You can do it!! :)
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@Rosie
Maybe I should come to California!
@Phil
Thank you. I haven’t considered doing yoga before but it might be a nice addition for some calming destressing time.
Oh, Merry, hang in there! Your blogs reveal what an awesome person you are: someone who cares about and is interested in other people. That’s something money can’t buy, although the money will come. Being broke after the frenetic spending of the holidays is something I am not unfamiliar with *cough*.
As for the weight, it’s easy to get emotional about the number. That’s how I felt when I weighed in at my all-time high in early November. After the initial sting faded, I found it was easier to look at my weight as a personal “project” rather than a judgment on my value as a person. Trying to take the super-emotional component out of it and just chipping away at the pounds is helping me, although I am faaaar, far, far from perfect and have my share of emotional (and weight-related) setbacks.
Break-ups just plain suck! I am virtually passing you a tissue right now. Lots of hugs until the worst has passed and someone worthy of you comes along.
P.S. I want to improve my cooking skills, too :).
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Sorry that 2009 isn’t all yippy skippy so far but we’re here with ya! and really 2 pounds is nothing…
Your goals seem super reasonable and I’m sure you’ll have great success.
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Hey Mary! I’m sorry to hear that you are going through some rough times. I wish you the best of luck in achieving your goals.
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It’s not as bad as you think, but I know it doesn’t feel that way right now.
If you ever want to get together for a workout, let me know. We could meet at Patriot Lake for a walk and squats and bench jumps and lunges and….
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The best thing about exercise and being healthy is that it can consume you. That can be bad or it can be good when you need something to focus on.
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