My eating is ridiculous.
That is the only word I can use to describe it. RIDICULOUS. And it is making me very frustrated. Very, very, very frustrated.
One day I will eat well and only consume 1600 calories (my goal is actually 1800). The next 3 days I will eat 2300+ calories in one day. I’m not sure why I seem to have better control on some days than others but there is definitely a lack of consistency in my eating habits.
Sometimes I feel like I think about food too much. I’m always thinking about it. When is my next meal? What am I having? How many calories have I had? I really want something sweet to eat, can I eat it? Who brought those cupcakes? Will I feel bad if I eat a cupcake? Will I feel bad if I don’t eat a cupcake?
Its a constant stream of food related thoughts running through my head all day long. Some days I can control this stream and the result is a well planned “under calories” day. On the other days the stream of food thoughts rushes over me like a wave and I drown. I get tired of thinking about it and just give up and give in, letting myself be washed away with the massive amounts of food I consume.
Its frustrating to be inconsistent and to be out of control. I’ve been tracking, regardless of what I eat or the calories, so at least I know this. Knowledge is a good first step. And soon I will take the next steps. I will have to because I will never get anywhere with this kind of constant food thinking = eating.
I know exactly what you mean. The past month has been a horror for me. I’ve gained some weight back and lost some strength because I haven’t been working out as I want and should be. It’s so ridiculous. Why can’t I do what I both want and need to do?
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Okay, that’s it! You’ll get no more cupcake twitter jokes out of me!
I was in your shoes with the constant thinking about food until about 2 months, but then I got my body used to eating (and craving) fruits, veggies, and whole grains. It’s totally got me filled up to the point where I almost forget to eat because I’m staying full longer. And the more I eat this good stuff, the more I’m NOT craving sugar. It’s like I’m being deprogrammed. I know you eat the good stuff already, but should you maybe amp up your intake and get deprogrammed?
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This is so hard! Hang in there, you WILL get it right!
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Like you, I feel like I’m constantly thinking about food. When do I get to eat again? What will I eat? What kind of food will I have on vacation next week? What do you mean you don’t want to plan out the dinner menu for next week with me? It drives me insane to have food always on my mind, and I’ve become convinced that if I could STOP thinking about it I’d not be so fat.
Never thought about how much I thought about food but came to realize I do think about it a lot. Is this good…yes this means we are attempting to plan ahead and be knowledgeable of what we are eating or going to eat but… bad because food is always on your mind and if food is always on your mind how can you stop eating. I think planning and be knowledgeable of what we are eating is way to helpful to not do it and even though you are thinking about your next meal all the time or if you want that cupcake you are thinking about it and making an educated decision. I say keep thinking about food in a healthy way.
Vanessa
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…Mary, are we the same person?
I do the same 1600-2300 calories as you do. I also have the issue of constantly thinking those kinds of thoughts and have so many difficulties with being able to NOT think about food. The book I reviewed today is freakin awesome though because it talks all about this kind of stuff. Big hugs- we can get past this!
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It may not be the same for you, but when I think about food constantly, what I’m going to eat next, and when, and if it’s too much/too little/too fattening, it usually means that I am actually hungry, not eating enough, or enough of what I need to be eating, anyway.
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Maybe if you just eat the cupcake (or half a cupcake??) when you think about it, and then eat healthy stuff too. Because if you think about a cupcake for days but don’t eat it, then when you do eat it you maybe might eat a bunch of cupcakes and other unhealthy stuff cuz the thought’s been building up. But if you just eat it when you want it, you can enjoy it, and move on. But that’s just a suggestion… im not an expert at this stuff… just stopping in to read your blog from flickr. :) I think its normal to think about food a lot.
Friend, outside the fixation of food and its related problems – I wonder if varying your caloric intake between 1600 and 2300 a day is a big deal. I’m not sure trying to hit a specific number everyday is so important. Hitting an average number over week period might be just as good. Just my two bits from someone who really does not know what he is talking about.
I think you are doing great, cheers and best of luck
Mike
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Girly I hear that. What the frick is with that? Thinking about food is a vicious cycle. Don’t think about it eat like a horse. Over think it still eat like a horse. DAMNIT.
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I think about food way too much. Like right now. All day today, really. Hm.
Anyhow, I’ve checked out your blog a bit, and it’s a keeper. I enjoy it. :)
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I agree that food can really consume my thoughts, but I eat healthier when it does. Have you thought about trying calorie cycling? Some high and some low days? Of course that doesn’t always involve cupcakes, but it can accommodate eating out. I would like to try it since it does work for people.
Inconsistency is a real challenge. I wish I knew a secret answer to this problem. Good luck getting past it – I know you can do it!