Last night I was watching The Biggest Loser and experiencing an interesting emotion: jealousy.
The contestants went home for one month before their weigh in and had to prove they could be healthy and still lose weight at home. I love the fact that this season The Biggest Loser focused so much on how contestants can do the same thing at home that they do at the ranch. There are a ton of us trying to lose weight and better our lives on our own (uh, hello?!?!) and they are trying to set a good example on the show. They want us to know the truth – you don’t have to go to the Biggest Loser Ranch to get healthy.
Despite all this I felt extremely jealous of the contestants. I want to be on the show and go to the ranch to get healthy. I want someone else to just kick my butt day in and day out until I lose enough weight to be considered healthy or even just overweight. I’m jealous that the Biggest Loser contestants have the easy way out. Yes, I know they WORK for the weight loss, but they are in a magical weight loss world where it is all that exists. It is much, much easier to lose weight when that is all that exists in your life.
My jealousy grows when I think of where the contestants are physically. Four months ago I was fat and the biggest loser contestants were fat. We were the same: FAT. Now the four still on the show (and those at home too, I’m sure) are no longer overweight. They are in shape, marathon-running/walking athletes. I am still fat. I know they worked hard and I didn’t (clearly) but the facts behind the matter don’t lessen my jealousy. I want to be where they are. I want to be claiming the amazing life of a normal 20 something that I can only dream of right now (Tara). I want to be doing marathons and pushing myself to do things that inspire other people (Ron). I want to be like all of the contestants who have new lives and healthier bodies.
And one day that is going to be me. But my journey is taking much longer than theirs and for that I am jealous. I am going to let these envious moments happen and then move on. Feeling jealous and wanting what they have will get me nowhere. I have to go out and earn a new life by working hard and making the right choices. So that is what I will do.