Yesterday on the drive home from a workout at the gym I randomly thought, “I need to focus on losing weight.”
Then I thought, “Wait, what? How much do I even weigh?”
I spent about five minutes trying to remember where on the spectrum I was because I honestly had no idea at that moment. I couldn’t remember the last time I had gotten on the scale. I suppose it was for my weigh in last month when I posted on this blog. Since then? Haven’t really thought about it or jumped on the scale every morning like I once did.
Yet…. I’ve still gone to the gym and done cardio daily.
Yet… I’ve still made myself pretty healthy meals.
Yet… I’ve still made time for relaxation and gratitude.
Yet… I’ve still drunk a ton of water every day.
Yet… I’ve kept doing all the healthy behaviors and routines…. just because.
I’ve just done all these things because they make me feel good and because they are good for me. I’ve taken vitamins and taken yoga classes and spent time in the sunshine because I know these are things that will benefit my overall health and make me feel happy. Just because. Not for any end goal.
Oh shit, I am I normal? It feels really nice to not have that obsession over a number or clothes size in the back of my mind these days. It frees up a lot of room for other things like working hard at my day job and side gigs, being there for people I care about, and just enjoying life.
I would love to be able to do that. Unfortunately, for me if I don’t weigh — even if I exercise and eat healthy food — I tend to overeat and end up gaining which I don’t want to do. But, it’s great for those who can do it….
Yeah that makes sense for you then. I have a pretty good handle on eating to maintain my current weight (50 down from my starting weight) so even without the scale I know I’m okay where I am and I’m just doing healthy stuff cause I like it. But do what works for you! :)
I love how liberated I feel to not be chained to a number on the scale – to eat for nourishment and nutrients, rather than calories, and to move for the love of it, not for the loathe of it.
It fills me with so much joy to hear that you are experiencing so much space in your own head to feel more for yourself and be there more for the people that are important to you <3
Love you btw. Miss being able to see you!
I’m as guilty as the next person at being a slave to the scale. Good for you, for working towards that liberation. I hope to get there soon!
You ARE normal! Jealous ;)
Thanks for tracking and updating your progress with us, keeping it healthy. Do you just drink water? you a fan of coffee? ;P
I love coffee but gave it up recently to help cut down my anxiety. I miss it but just drink water and herbal tea now.
It sounds like you are in a good place in regards to your weight and healthy habits! Keep up the good work!!!!
How amazing! What a healthy place you’re in!!! I love it, and can’t wait until I can say the same thing. :-)
Love your post your site helps me and gives me tip on how I myself can stay healthy
Sounds like you have found peace of mind!
I LOVE this post Mary! This is somewhere I need to get to myself, and am slowly working on. How you feel is so much more important than the scale.
You are simply awesome, loved the post and it indirectly motivates me to check my weight and more importantly planning to lose weight. Thanks for the awesome blog.