Some days are better than others.
Today I can’t wrap my head around positive thoughts. I can’t make myself believe I can do it. I can’t fathom how I will ever weigh less than 200 pounds. I feel doomed.
I’m still drinking water today. I’m still eating my fruits and veggies today. I’m still going to the gym for an hour today. But I’ve got a black cloud following me as I do it. I’ve got a little scantily clad skinny girl demon on my shoulder telling me I can’t do it. I’ve lost the pretty angel on the other side. This is a day sans my normal positivity.
I’m not even sure why this is. (Lemme guess, hormonal?)
But here is one thing I’m learning: motivation is nothing compared to determination.
You can be motivated to eat right and go to the gym. For a while you will be excited and think about all those reasons why you are doing it. For a while it will feel like nothing can stop you.
And then you will hit a wall. It might be a mental wall. It might be a motivational wall. It might be a laziness wall. It might be a lack of time wall. It might be a “wrong number on the scale induced angriness” wall. Whatever causes it you will eventually hit a wall. You won’t want to keep doing the same things. You won’t want to eat healthy or get your workout in. You won’t be motivated to keep going.
Well too bad. If you want to succeed you have to keep doing the things that work whether you are motivated or not. You have to continue to go to the gym even if you don’t feel like it. You have to be DETERMINED to lose weight, not motivated. Motivation is nothing. It might get you started but determination keeps you going and makes things happen.
I’m definitely not feeling motivated today. But I’m determined to make this happen. You?