Slow relaxing day here in Gatlinburg. We walked along the same trail as yesterday and then did some shopping. Today hasn’t been very exciting as far as cool views or new things, but I’ve been thinking a lot about how cool it is to be living this crazy awesome life I’ve created for myself.
What cool pics!!! Looks like a fantastic time!!! OH NO on the ankle though! I hope it is getting better for your very exciting trip to New Zealand!!! You are living life Mary & I am so happy for you! People can learn from this!
Keep on enjoying!
PS: I want to say that I really admire you for doing all this stuff. Not being mean, cause in an email it sounds that way BUT many people that are at your weight refuse to do anything or to live life until they lose all or most of the weight. You are a perfect example of why NOT to do that Mary!
That comment really, really hit me. I’m glad Jody mentioned this. I’m not at my goal weight. Not even close really. I’m still technically morbidly obese when you look at my stats (but only by .1 % so I’m almost to the “severe obesity” category). Seriously. I’m still fat. I’ve lost over 30 pounds and I’m still big. I still wear plus size clothes and worry about things like fitting through spaces in crowded restaurants. I’m not at my goal weight or even close to it.
But I don’t let the weight stop me from doing anything.
I might be obese but I can still run half a mile. I might be obese but I can kill it in a kickboxing class and dance like everyone else in a zumba class. I might be obese but I still go on adventures and travel as much as I can afford. I might be obese but I love going snowboarding. I might be obese but I don’t let it stop my from doing anything I want to do.
I might be obese still but I’m not always going to be. One day I won’t be obese any longer, and on that day when I look back at this time where I was bigger I don’t want it to be a black void where I never allowed myself to have fun or do anything because of my weight.
A while ago I realized that if I let my weight hold me back from doing things then I would never do anything cool. I would just waste years of my life wishing I did all the things thinner people got to do. The only reason I got to this point in thinking is because I did waste years not doing things. My high school experience was full of missed opportunities and experiences. I didn’t go to parties or dances or other social events in high school. I stopped playing sports for the most part and skipped out on every active event I could miss. I let my weight, which hovered around 250-260 during high school, control my life in a negative way. And after those four years I finally started losing weight and really living – even before I got to my goal weight.
I read a lot of weight loss blogs and know a lot of people that feel like they can’t do certain things until they hit a number on the scale. It’s a lie they tell themselves. Weight doesn’t have to have as much control on your life as most of us let it. You can make the decision to try new things and go new places and experience new things no matter how much you weigh.
Weight won’t be holding me back anymore. I hope it doesn’t hold you back either. If there is something you’ve been planning to do “after you lose the weight” consider doing it now. Consider trying it before you reach that perfect goal. You might surprise yourself and find out you can do it now and enjoy it!
But don’t get me wrong. I might do everything I want now, but I still want to lose weight. I don’t want to be obese with all the health complications that carries. While I’m not necessarily losing weight to “look hot” or “fit in a bikini” I do still need to lose weight for health reasons. And I am going to do it. I’m still obese but I’m not stopping. I’m not stopping because I’ve got more weight to lose and more things to do and places to go.
Thinking about places to go and going to New Zealand makes me think about the future and my plans for the rest of this year. I’ve got big plans for fitness and fun and life this year. But when I start thinking about that I also start thinking about all the new bloggers and people trying to get healthy out there. How many will be around in a month? In six months? People seem to come and go in this little community so fast I almost can’t keep track. I interact, read, get attached to someone and then one day they just disappear. I don’t know what is going on in their lives anymore after feeling like they were a friend and we were in this together. It’s a strange feeling to see someone just disappear off your radar like that when you thought you were doing something important together. It’s okay to see struggles and failures and all, but just disappearing? It’s not cool. But it happens. People give up and fade away, letting their goals go back to just being long lost dreams.
So I guess I’m wondering, are we in this together or not? Are we getting healthy this year, finally? I know I am. I’m hitting my goal this year. This is MY FREAKING YEAR. So are you going to do it too? I know I want you to do the same and reach all your goals. I know you need and want to do it. I know I want to do it with all of you. Are you with me or not? Are we going to do this together or are we going to give up and go our separate ways away from our goals?
Don’t let weight stop you from living or from reaching your health goals.