I think feeling the way I did yesterday made this experience at Green Mountain at Fox Run a million times more useful for me. I was emotional, upset, and needing a release. Instead of doing what I might have in the past and finding food (not impossible to do here), I sat with my emotions, typed out a blog post, and dealt with it. It wasn’t pleasant on my end and it wasn’t the most popular thing I’ve ever written. But it was necessary.
Up until this point I’ve had an amazing experience here. Every day was fun, I was up, I couldn’t believe how lucky I was to be here. And then yesterday I felt all that stuff I talked about on top of stuff I can’t even blog about, and it all just crashed. But I didn’t turn to food. I didn’t even think of turning to food. I’m almost amazed at how my brain worked in the ways they have been telling us about in our classes here. My mind didn’t go through the same process it used to. THIS IS PROGRESS.
An emotional low is part of the process for me to progress and change. I needed to feel that and I needed to let myself feel that so I could work out the reaction. It would be great to spend three months in Vermont being perfect every day, but that wouldn’t really help me grow as much. That process of thinking through “bad” emotions and reacting to them in better ways is one of the main reasons why I am here.
So, thank you for listening to my blogging rambles and for all the encouragement. It really, really helped as well. Everyone has a bad day now and again and I really appreciate the love I got during mine. <3 Today is a new day, and one with snow at that. I woke up to a really pretty day with a really wonderful and refreshed attitude. I’m excited about everything that is to come and very, very excited about how far I’ve come and what I’ve learned.
Oh, and want more beauty? Here is a picture from a hike before the snow when the colors were AMAZING.
Bouncing right back. Ah, the resiliancy of youth.
Stick with it, Mary. Getting your head (and your body) in the right place will go a long way towards taking your life in the right place.
And you mom doesn’t like my comments because she’s still ticked off that I stood her up for our high school prom. Get over it!
@JackSht
Yeah, I def think so. And look, you and my mom need to get over your past together. It was the 1920s. You both should be over high school drama by now.
Thank you for sharing your bad day with us. It makes all those good days that much better! And congratulations on the progress. Having the physical strength to bench press a pony is pretty cool, but overcoming emotional eating? Now that is just bad-ass.
awesome way to get your head back in it.
Glad you are doing better today Mary. Talking about the challenging stuff isn’t easy to do, but definitely helps us move forward. I appreciate your honesty and willingness to share your bad days as well as your successes. It sounds like the prigram is really helping you to address your stuff! Congratulations on your progress – it is very real! I am having a better week too.
I am so glad that the learning process is working for you! Yes, all this stuff creates highs & lows & probably will belows again.. BUT you know that you can deal with them & without turning to food! A stronger you for sure! And I do think this is a great place to write about it. Yes, you got tougher & more sympathetic responses both BUT it helped you work it thru.
I love the pics!!!
It’s nice to hear you are working your way through things. I think we all have those down moments and it sure does feel good to process it and get through to the other side And the pics are beautiful
I read your post of yesterday first and before responding to it, I’ve read this one and am glad you’re feeling better today.
You really are making progress by not turning to food when you weren’t happy with yourself/your life. I’m proud of you, hang in there!
Being in such beautiful surroundings would help lift anyone’s spirits! It’s gorgeous there!!! Glad you’re feeling better, and you’re right, that’s huge progress.
Dang Mary: The 1920’s, real good of you to age me even more, and no man has ever stood me up Jack! To bad for you that you have the wrong MOM! They say the memory is the first thing to go, BOO HOO!
Baby I am glad you are feeling better, I knew you would, and what a beautiful picture.
Be Happy!
Love MOM
Mary, Thanks for being so transparent! It takes a lot of courage to be open and honest online. I am going through the same thing here: http://www.dontweight.us I wish you much success.
Big Jon
I absolutely LOVE that pic of you! You look so happy & free!! I think you’re doing wonderful, keep on keepin’ on!! :)
Yay congrats on progress and feeling better! Wow, snow already… I remember those super snowy winters in vt… youre in for it. Lol.
If yesterday’s post kept you from resorting to food, or even if it just helped, it fulfilled its purpose. Make it a great day!
so glad you made it through the bad day! How fantastic. Sounds like this is a really beneficial experience.
Well done me dear, We are all different and the world is a richer place for it. Just because we may not be 100 pounds, leggy and 5 feet 11 doesnt mean that we are not beautiful.
Oh wow..the scenery is stunning. We dont have snow here and your pic just made more and more envious.
You are making wonderful progress! Love those fall colors! We had a frosty, cold weekend here in Colorado, too. It was gorgeous and I’m definitely ready for the chill in the air.
Life is about ebbs and flows. It’s all how you deal with them. Being honest about where you are and then doing something positive about it that will bring long-term change in the direction that you want…is where it’s at.
Man I miss those leaves. Will you please enjoy them for me?
~M
LOOOOVE the photo and as with anything in life it takes the lows to truly feel the freedom and joys of bouncing back upward.
Well i have seen you in video of last post and i found lot of progress.
I’m so glad to read this, Mary :) Progress. No matter what shape it comes in, it’s always a wonderful thing. And you realised it was progress too! It isn’t something you’re just throwing away, you’re owning it, so I think that’s a good thing too. And as you go on, and face more mental challenges, you’ll know you can wade through them and get to the other side. You’re getting strong, not just physically, but mentally too :)
@BodyByPizza
Yes, that ability is cool – who wouldnt want to bench press a pony – but beating emotional eating, for the most part, is my main goal. :)
@Kat
Sharing the bad days and the times when I feel like a failure is scary but I think it is important. So I’m glad you appreciated it.
@MOM
Hehe, don’t worry, I think Jack is scared of you. Glad you liked the pics. I’m going to put up more soon for you and Charles to see!
@MamaBearJune
I don’t think I’m quite ready for the chill. I could wait another month. :)
@Michelle
DONE! I wanna make a big pile of leaves and dive into them, hehe. I loved doing that as a kid… so much fun!
That is progress. It is ok to talk about all the bad too. You have to get it out otherwise it will fester. Sharing is caring. Good to hear you bouncing back.
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I added your blog to bookmarks. And i’ll read your articles more often!
Beautiful! fall is my fav season but unfortunately we dont get much of it in Chicago. Glad that you had a great day!