I’ve stumbled into what is less of an adventure and more like a holding period, a purgatory. Right now I’m at my family’s house watching tv (because what else can I do?), full of processed foods (because that’s all they have), feeling trapped (because my brother is keeping my car), and wondering when I will get out (today or tomorrow when I get a key to my friend’s place). But for right now I just feel like I’m in the exact place where I didn’t want to be. Fortunately it’s only temporary and by tomorrow I will be off and more or less on my own. I’m ready for that. I hate being in this house and as anyone who reads my blog knows – it’s not good for me.
Memphis, TN
But on the positive side… later today I’m going to go through all the stuff Jen gave me and write up some workout options to put on little cards I can take with me everywhere. I’m going to just get the basic workouts down (even though I have them memorized by now) so I can add some cooler exercises to make it fun. I think it helps to have all the workout options down on paper, just so you can refer back and not forget things when you workout. (Like me.) Basically I’m going to try and make myself into a planner of sorts when I’m more used to being an impulsive exerciser.
I will also be going through other stuff that I collected at Green Mountain both in an effort to declutter (I’ll write about this in the future) and to figure out what information I have and need to implement and share (more about this later too!). Since the job I thought I was going to have fell through, I’m just going to spend a few days getting organized and figuring out what to do next. If I don’t find any work while I’m home (sadly, it’s a possibility) then I will just enjoy the period of unemployment and try to workout and blog a lot. At least I will once again have time to read blogs!
Whatever happens while I am here I’m thankful for the time to be in Memphis. And I’m thankful for all the support y’all give me. So much. I’d probably would have just given up long ago if I didn’t have such an awesome blogging community to turn to when I need it. Thank you!
Welcome home! Yes remeber …only temporary and hold onto all the positives you ahve gained! You will be “home” soon and all will be well. {{HUGS}}
.-= Trish @imaSucceeding´s last blog ..You Win Some…You Lose Some =-.
Being in limbo after such a great retreat…ugh. A few more days. At least you’re taking advantage of the calm before the next move.
Sorry your job fell through. Sorry youre so bored, I know it can get boring being home alone with nothing to do, and the more bored you are, the things there are to do just seem even more boring. Although watching a show about women shopping for their wedding dress sounds like torture to me even at the best of times. Before you know it, you’ll be out of there, and soon back to traveling around again. :)
.-= merri´s last blog ..Buying new stuff isnt always bad =-.
Haha. I actually like watching wedding shows… anything about the dresses or cakes or planning. I don’t know why, haha.
Hang in there! It is tough being in a place that is not good for you BUT you have a plan & that is good. You learned a lot at Green Mountain so now you can take that & run!
I never get why I sometimes have to do a second comment to get my latest post showing sooooo, here it is & I hope the post shows. Did you enter to win that tote bag Mary.. I think you did. You have thru today.
.-= Jody – Fit at 52´s last blog ..Hope, Courage, Faith; Can You Vote fo Me =-.
I’m glad for you you’re leaving today, this doesn’t sound good being at home.
I’m wondering how you can live without a job, I suppose you do need money to live from. Maybe I’m to curious but I was just wondering.
.-= Fran´s last blog ..A day in my life: Thursday December 3rd 2009 =-.
Hehe, I guess that is a valid question. I do make some money online through blogging and other efforts, it’s just not a full-time income. I usually just like to have another job so I get out of the house, don’t get bored, and have enough money. But I get by because I have so few expenses… I don’t really spend money and have a lot of savings. :) So I get by.
I very much relate to “home” not having healthy food choices. Hang in there Mary. Your kung-fu is strong…:-) Seriously, you can handle anything for a day or two, because you are strong. It will be great to get your own space for the next while. Have you thought about registering with a temp agency?
.-= Kat´s last blog ..Hot 100 Challenge – Update #7 =-.
Hehehe, I love that kung-fu comment. Thanks! I have thought about that and probably will go register if I get my car back. Maybe they can find me something…. but I looked at their listings online and the pickings look slim.
Hang in there – at least this is only for a short time. I’m sorry that the job fell through but I’m sure something else will come up – I have faith in you!
Decluttering is good and I can’t wait to read more about your process. This may feel more like purgatory than an adventure but it’s all an adventure – some adventures are just more obvious.
.-= Gemfit´s last blog ..Where Gemfit entertains the class =-.
i’m glad you’re out planning things to stay on track. i know i don’t understand the degree to which your home life brings you down, but when i’m in situations like that, i try to constantly make lists of good things, things i love, people i love and try to control my mood with the power of positive thinking. just some thoughts….good luck staying happy and on track!
.-= Adrienne´s last blog ..Month One =-.
Look at you, already slipping into using “ya’ll”… welcome home, Mary.
.-= Jack Sh*t´s last blog ..Fat Ass-trology =-.
I can imagine that it’s hard leaving somewhere like Green Mountain and coming home to do… nothing. That would be difficult and I don’t even know your whole situation, since I haven’t been reading long. Hang in there.
.-= jenn´s last blog ..Sleep =-.
Glad you are home for some time, but totally agree that home is not where the health is. Too many bad habits were perfected there! I’m looking forward to hearing a recap of things from Green Mountain!
.-= mackattack´s last blog ..Gnocchi Sauce =-.
hey mary! just make sure you remember this feeling right now, how you feel at home. you can use it to compare when you’re out of the house on those days you feel unmotivated or what have you…you’ll be in a better place and truly free to do what pleases you and makes you healthy and happy!
good luck on getting a job, i’m in the same boat. fingers crossed!
.-= Laura´s last blog ..Make You Meal My Love =-.
Welcome home! I’m glad to have you back in the same area code, even if it’s only temporary!
If I were you, I would take a looooooooooooooooooong walk and find some produce…lol.
This would have a positive affect on two fronts..first,you would have some decent food, second…you would get some exercise.
Hold on there buckaroo, it’s almost over.
.-= chris´s last blog ..December 3rd….rocking the workout…& eye candy =-.
I like having things written down, too. It’s a good motivator AND a good reminder.
Hoping you’re feeling more on track today!
.-= Sagan´s last blog ..Fitting those neglected things back into our lives =-.
I am looking forward to hearing more about your exercise options. You are such a good motivator, now I need to go help myself.
So I started reading your blog (from the beginning!) like 2 weeks ago! I’ve read pretty much every post up till this one…
You’ve generally been a positive person! I think you have honest and sometimes thoguht provoking posts. There is however one theme I’ve noticed running through your blog.
You have a tendency to blame external forces for why you can’t do something.
Your mom, your brother, the rain, a headache etc etc. Before any of your loyal fans jump down my throat. I’m not saying that those are not sometimes valid reasons, but you know, right now they are excuses. You have to take control of your life and not leave it to all these external forces. There’s a saying that Mother Teresa and MLK and JFK and Ghandi all had the same number of hours in a day. It’s what you do that counts.
Likewise, with healthy choices. You know what to do. I’ve read loads of posts here with useful tips. You actually LIKE vegetables. It’s just a question of doing it and stop ALLOWING all these external forces to control your life. You planned a run and it started raining? You don’t like to run in the rain (maybe dangerous?). Ok fine, put on a workout dvd and excercise indoors. Or go swimming. or go to the gym. There’s always an option.
Anyway, I’m not attacking you… but reading through in one go – I get to see the cycle a lot clearer than people reading weekly. I haven’t gotten up to date yet but I’m predicting something will happen in the next month or so and you’ll have gained back some of what you lost at green mountain. (If I’m wrong, I’ll post something apologising).
Anyway, that’s my 2 cents!