The other day I was getting ready to go to the gym and I realized I hated my workout clothes.
I hated every single thing I was wearing to the gym.
Of course I was wearing all black at the time which made me feel like I was headed to a funeral instead of going to do something I find fun. Also nothing fit me properly because I’m smaller than all my workout clothes since I haven’t bought anything new besides tri shorts in at least nine months.
There I am, dressed in black and feeling frumpy. Not exactly the kind of motivating mood you want to be in before a workout. Not at all.
After the moment where I realized how much I hated those clothes it just went downhill from there. I knew I didn’t look great so I didn’t feel great. The attack on my self-esteem went from there and while I was at the gym I felt even worse. Frumpy. Out of place. Ugly. It felt like I was trying to blend into the workout machines. Maybe I was?
I realize now that my workout clothes are a problem and have been for some time. Almost everything is black besides tank tops that I no longer wear because they are misshapen and don’t fit me well. The lack of proper fit and the extreme lack of color makes me unhappy and negatively affects my body image when I’m wearing those clothes. It’s hard to feel good about yourself when you are wearing crappy clothes that don’t reflect how you feel on the inside.
I wear these clothes often so it’s no wonder I’ve been struggling with my body image lately.
For me there is a cycle in two directions. When I feel good about myself, I exercise more and am more active, I lose weight and just feel better. OR… When I feel bad about myself, I stop exercising as much, I eat worse, and I gain weight. What I wear to exercise in is just one part of the equation that leads me toward the negative cycle.
This won’t be resolved any time soon. The reason I haven’t bought any workout clothes since I’ve been in NZ is because they haven’t been a priority. Frankly they still aren’t. I’m hoping that once I get back to the US I can find some reasonably priced yet cute workout clothes so I can start feeling better about myself when I workout which will translate into a return of better body image overall.
What about you? Does what you wear when you workout affect you? Do you like to wear cute exercise clothes? How often do you buy new workout clothes?